Home for the Holiday’s: Part 1

I am back home in Atlanta!! Yay! Yesterday was a day full of traveling and now I’m sitting in my own room for the first time in 3 months.

Traveling yesterday was pretty exciting. It was the first time I’ve flown home by myself from school. Luckily, the St. Louis airport is much smaller than the Atlanta airport; so even though I didn’t know my way around it was impossible to get lost. There was a lot of waiting around for my flight because I got to the airport SUPER early. I love flying though and I love having the window seat. Watching take off and seeing the cities looking so tiny from the air is my favorite part!

The flight was so crowded, I swear the seats are closer together than they were just a few months ago when I flew home from St. Louis. That is honestly the worst part of flying- the amount of people. There were SO many!

Now I’m home.  I head back to school on Monday, but until then I’m crazy busy. Catching up with friends, celebrating Thanksgiving with family, writing a paper and studying for finals. My schedule is booked.  

It’s a weird feeling being back that I can’t quite put into words. It is a very surreal feeling. But I’m happy to be back and too see everyone. Especially my dogs!! (Oh! And to get the chance to drive my car again!)

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Review: Taylor Swift's 1989

I have probably listened to this album over 100 times and I absolutely love it. Honestly this might be my favorite Taylor Swift album yet. But how can I pick when I think they are all pretty perfect.

1989 is Taylor’s fifth album and her first documented official pop album. This album sold 1.287 million in the first week. That’s pretty impressive.

I love every song on this album. Seriously. I love dancing like crazy to “Shake It Off” and I love the sweet ballad that is “This Love.”  However, my favorites list would have to be:

Welcome to New York

Blank Space

Style

Wildest Dreams

I was able to narrow it down to four and I think that’s the best I can do. I really can’t pick one.

 I love “Welcome to New York” because I plan of living there one day and I think Taylor captures the feeling of moving to the city really well in her song.  I personally can see myself moving to New York when I listen to the song and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

“Blank Space” has my favorite music video I think I have ever seen. Taylor is funny and beautiful in it. I want to wear all her outfits in it. Also the lyrics are my favorite part of this song. It has one of my favorite lines in it: “cause darling I’m a nightmare dressed as a daydream.” If you haven’t seen the music video, go watch it now!

The lyrics along with the music are why I love “Style.” Yeah, I think it’s written about Taylor’s love affair with Harry Styles, but I love how her songs are so real for her. It puts so much more meaning behind the songs which is why she’s one of my favorite artists. The chorus is the best thing. Ever.

My love for “Wildest Dreams” is because it is currently so relatable to me. I may or may not be involved in a little fling right now. It’s definitely nothing that will last, which is what I feel the she means when she sings “I can see the end as it begins.”

This album is a hit and I recommend that everyone buys it and listens to it on repeat. I cannot wait for her world tour. Next October I plan on seeing her here in St. Louis. My excitement levels are SO high and it’s still a whole year away. I have loved Taylor Swift since the beginning and I’m blown away by this amazing album.

This Time of Year

It’s November. The weather is turning cold. It gets darker way earlier. All the leaves are falling.

I love the summer; it’s definitely my favorite season. I like warmth. But there is something so exciting about this time of year. Thanksgiving and Christmas are coming up! And my first semester of college is near its end!! I’m excited to be going home in two weeks for the first time since coming here. It will be nice even though college already feels like home.

While I do love this time of year, and it’s fun to fantasize about, this time of year comes with added stress and anxiety for me. School is getting busy, which puts more pressure on me to perform well. I want to do well on all my classes because it’s important to me. However, when there is so much work the stress gets to me and causes me to shut down. For example, on Friday I was supposed to get some studying done, but I was so overcome by stress and anxiety I just had to curl up in bed and I fell asleep before 10pm.

Another thing that causes me to be anxious around this time of year is the holidays. I struggle with an undiagnosed eating disorder, which also means I’ve never received any professional help or treatment for my destructive behaviors. I am working on recovering but it is a process. And during the holidays there is a lot of focus on the food and meals which is harder to deal with.

I am trying to stay positive this year though. There are so many things about Thanksgiving and Christmas and this time of year in general that I love and I don’t want that to be ruined. I have determination to not let my anxiety or eating disorder or anything else keep me from being happy and enjoying myself this season.